We Are All The Same, Standing Under The Same Sky, Looking At The Same Moon, Under The Same Universe.

Most of the time being, whenever you feel alone, you would prefer to have a friend to walk with you by your side-through thick or thin, rain or shine, happy or sad. With no doubts, they are the ones who play an important role in our life, but do you know, sooner or later, it's just you against the world.

Regardless of where you are around the world, accepting those facts that things will never be the same is the first step to mend a broken heart.

Social networking sites are said to really impact you in your life, it was even mentioned in the newspaper that it's psychologically true that you would feel left out when you see your friends having fun or posting activities on the internet without you being there. So, regardless of where you are in the world now, we all feel left out at certain point.

When you're on the other side of the world and you feel like you are the only one facing this problem, think again. You are never alone in this world.

While you are feeling replaced when you're on the other side on the world, people here feel left out themselves too.

Friends promise you that they would walk through the journey with you. However, some where along the road, you will find yourself walking alone- it's called growing up. You may blame your friend for not keeping their promise, but sometimes, things just happen.

It's like you taking care of a flower; you water it, put sufficient amount of fertilizer, making sure that it gets enough sunlight, researching all over the Internet on how you can prevent the flower from wilting, but what if one day, you did your best, you've gave your all, at the end of the day, the flower wilts. Are you going to blame yourself? Are you gonna blame the flower because it some how rather 'decided' to wilt? Is blaming going to revive it? No. It won't. It's nature. At least you know you did your best, you saw the flower bloomed, you saw it at its best.

That's how life is, how friendship is.

You did your best, to prevent that friendship from falling apart, some how or rather, if it's gonna fall apart, it's gonna fall apart. For whatever stupid reasons it might be, over a small sign of jealousy, over you feeling left out all the time, being separated into different universities after being in the same institution for so long. You can't blame if they are to fall apart one day, but you know you did your best.

Thus,

regardless of you being at any side of the world, we all have feelings that we would rather keep inside us some times. We have problems that we do not want to talk about. We have issues and problems tickling our mind. We all have our hard times and we will definitely have great times too. Never in your life you should ever feel replaced.

Because a flower wouldn't mind if you decided to buy a new one.

Because a dog wouldn't stop you from getting a new puppy when it's time for it to leave the world,

and then,

once you've entered a person's life, no matter how it is, for good or for bad, you left a deep mark in their heart.

Replacement is a word we use on items, objects, non-living things. Thus, don't use it on yourself, or other people.

:)

LiewMayEe

God Bless you.

Sometimes.

That girl who is always there for them when they need her,

needs some one to be there for her too.

That girl you see laughing the whole day,

might have millions of things running through her mind at night.

When you think she's strong, she's just as weak as everyone else.

When you think you've known that person well enough,

think again,

unless you can read minds,

don't pretend you know some one so well :)

Close your ears,

close your eyes,

put all your assumptions aside,

place yourself in her shoes,

walk in her shoes,

listen to her with your heart;

you'll know if she's alright or not

:)

05042012.

It's not a goodbye, we'll meet again soon.

This post is dedicated to Kah Sim, Roshan and Hao Jia. :)

Hi Kah Sim,

Woah, you're like leaving tomorrow. :/ I'm truly sorry that I couldn't make it for your farewell party last week, I wished I was there. I'm glad I met you this year, if it wasn't for you, we wouldn't have so many random outings to Ikea for meatballs, Laser Tag in iCity, and whatsoever events that you've been organizing the whole year in Ausmat. Thanks for all of those outings. Thanks for always doing your best to help us arrange transport when we cannot make it. You'll always do your best to arrange the event so that we could all make it. Although we do not share secret and stuff like that, I will always have you in my heart. I would always remember all the nice things you did for me, not just me, but all of us in Ausmat. :) You would never LEAVE anybody out. It's either you'll invite the whole world, or you don't call anyone at all. Because of you, I never felt left out. None of us will feel left out. Remember when we went cycling together, and all I ever did was to complain and doubt myself that I can never make it back to the starting point, you were there, to......

hand me my water bottle! :DDD HAHA. I will remember that! The only thing I regret is not having a nice, proper picture with you, and before you leave tomorrow, I will make sure to spam my phone with picture of us together! :) From the bottom of my heart, thank you for everything!

<3

Roshan Menon.

Hi Roshan :D you know, you're always like the joker in our group, besides Ken Xi and before Sher Mun came along. You're always known as the guy with style! I can't remember how we met actually, and I can't remember who introduced you to me. I remember chatting with you on skype & msn almost EVERY NIGHT in the beginning of last year. We would always talk about our secrets- from all the embarrassing moment to all the endless confession of whatsoever that happened in our life. I had a great time with you. EVERYDAY! Every time we're alone together, I always feel comfortable telling you my problem. I love how you always give me the best advice, and whatever it is, you will never judge me. You'd always be there for me.

I'm sorry for not being there for you all the time. :)

Before you leave, remember that all of us here will miss you, and it would definitely be different without you. Take care when you're in Aussie! MAKE SURE you update me about everything!

Love you, buddy. :)

Lee Hao Jia the most retarded human being,

Okay lahh, you're not the most retarded human being la. I am la :D and please, stop like texting me in Mandrin, I won't understand what you say! I want to keep this simple and short,

We had like wonderful time together-going Ikea for meatballs, Ausmat's iCare day, ausmat night, dinner in ss15, iCity and etc.

Remember when I was half way walking to elephant walk, then you stopped at the traffic light, and i just jumped into your car and asked you to send me to elephant walk. :p Please note that I only do things like that to friends whom I'm close to.

I've always wanted to truly thank you for staying up late at night, when I'm always having problems. Thanks for staying up just to listen to them. Thanks for being my 'transporter' when I had no transport to wherever our group planned to go :D

oh, thanks for taking all the ugly pictures of me! grhh, I'll get to you on that soon.

When you're in australia, you better make sure you don't stop talking to me okay?!

and please, cure yourself from the MayEe Disease! I'll miss you :) Take good care when you're there, and don't forget, I'll still be all ears for you when you need a friend to talk to.

Love,

MayEe. (:

Walk Away

Hi every one. :)

I suddenly had the mood to blog and write about something.

Dear readers, er if I have some. HAHA okay. quit the formal greetings. I'm not gonna write about something nice here.

If you do not like some one, don't pretend to like them. Don't bother about trying to impress them. Don't go acting so nice and all in front of them, then the next thing you know, you're cursing that fella behind their backs. Honestly, what did they do to you? If they stand on your way, you take the other road. If there is no other way, you've got to voice out and tell them off. That's the way of life.

When you choose not to voice out when some one is standing your way, blame yourself. You were the one who made that choice. Don't go blaming others for what you've decided on.

You. You don't go around talking about someone when you were the one who allowed them to do it at the first place. When some one asks you for a leak question, and then you tell them, don't complain and don't start cursing when they got higher marks than you.

You. You do not give people stares from top to toe when you do not know me personally. You don't like me, come here and tell me. I'll be open about it. You don't like the way I talk, close your ears and walk off then. You don't like the way I behave? I'm living my own life and not living it to your expectations or your needs. You want to stare at me from top to toe? You wanna scan me like this everyday, Oh, come on, I'll give you a full picture of myself and you shall stare at it all you want.

We are all judgmental. We all bitch about everyone. We all do silly things. We all have haters. We all have issues; and we all problems. We all have different attitudes, behaviors and actions. This is why we have friends and family to complete us. To make us feel like all our flaws means nothing when they are willing to accept all of our imperfections.

I won't be able to stand up high and say I am not like you. I am just like you. I talk bad about people behind their backs too, I dislike people too. The only thing that differs me from you is the fact that, I do NOT pretend that I like you. I do not try to impress you. I will not treat you nice for who knows what reason. Apart from that, believing in the existence of God or not, I do not use the name of God and Jesus to all the bad things that you use it for.

How would you like it when I step on poop and i say Oh *******. Or or or when every time things doesn't go my away, I mention your name to replace the word, f.u.c.k?

I don't recall the time where I was blocking your way. I don't recall when did I ever talk bad about you, until recently. I don't recall if I ever did block your view. I don't remember anything bout me making your life miserable. Actually, I don't think any one or should I say everyone, since you talk bad about EVERYONE, has ever done anything to mentally and physically harm you.

So, tell me? Where did you get all the bad things to say about us? Is it because we are ugly? Is it because our command in English isn't as great as you? or is it because of the way we act? Weren't we supposed to tell some one off, if they did something that crossed the line?

My mom and dad used to always teach me, to never spread the word of hatred any where, my mom, she taught me to never talk bad about some body to every one. Don't go around ruining other people's reputation when the only thing you know bout them is their looks and names. Don't go around judging some one when you haven't walk a mile in their shoes. Don't go around cursing some body's parents or family when you do not know how much their parents would sacrifice for their own children.

Actually, don't go around being YOU.

You. You are mean, inconsiderate, two faced, rude, impatient, fake, cocky, and don't forget-you are one of us. Don't think so highly of yourself. You might be better than most of us, but there are people who are better than you too.

Before you judge some one, look into the mirror.

Before you open your mouth, Think.

Before you start all your mean actions, please bare in mind that most of us are aware of your true colors.

Oh, thanks for telling the world about my imperfections.

Because after they got to know me better, you seem to be the one with issues, not me. :)

There's a little bit more in life than just living on your own

When life pushes you down, you get back up. That's easy to say.

When you're walking the path on your own, you get some one to accompany you. That's easy to say.

When some one doesn't treasure you, value your worth, thank you for all you've done, you stop giving in. That's easy for you to say.

We all have a friend that we will stand by us side to side; A friend whom we can fall back at the end of the day, knowing that he/she will hold us; A friend whom you can call at 4am in the morning just because you can't sleep or you have something bothering you. Then again, we have friends who betrays us, friends who turn their back on you when you are at your lowest, friends who walk out of your life when you are having trouble, and those who comes in when you are in fame.

Sometimes, it's just a simple thank you that's being said from the heart, is enough to show a friend that you really appreciate them.

Everyone is looking for a friend whom they can tell everything to, a person who will never judge them, some one who will stay by your side through thick and thin, and a person whom you can totally be honest with-telling them straight in their faces when they've done something that tickle your mind, and some one whom you can be totally fine with even though you guys are not hanging out with everyday. I've found that some one. And she knows it :)

The main reason of me writing this, is not because of wanting to prove anything. But to admit how stupid I can be at times. At certain point in life, I some times do feel that I'm being used, or rather not appreciated by certain people. Yet, I still do not want to walk out of their life.

I've reached a certain time where I think it's really time for me to think for myself, for once. Stop giving in, stop trying to help just so I can keep that friend, start taking a little more, and stop looking down at myself. I think it's time I should love myself, and when I'm saying this, I have a mini list of friends that would not leave me, at the back of my mind; F.R.I.E.N.D.S that actually care; friends that actually stayed because they can see right through me, the ones that DID NOT mix with me because of all the good things that I do for them. I've learned.

Look into your own definition of friends. Quote it yourself, value it yourself and judge it yourself :)

A Mask

Had a sudden feeling to blog about this, so here I go. please mind my broken english.

You know how everyone usually puts on a mask on their faces, pretending to be someone they're not. Or rather, putting it on just to satisfy other people in this world. Some of us might realize that there is no point putting a mask your whole life-telling yourself to find friends and people who will love you and then accept you for who you are. While, some of us are still struggling with that. Facebook, Twitter- all these social networking site are constantly having posts about how we should stay to our own true-self and not bother about what others might think, fact is, every one is judgmental. Even those who first accepts you for who you are, will soon judge you and tell you off.

Well, you might think that family are the ones that should be accepting you for who you are. They will. I know they will. But why do I have to hold back on what I've got to say whenever I feel like posting something up on Facebook as my status, as long as it has nothing to do with revealing my privacy, isn't that fine? I know to a certain limit, I should always watch what I say, Because I'm a girl, and I need to know my price.

Being a girl at this age, being a teenager, I still want to have fun: having to mix with the fun and cool friends, having freedom to do things. Friends that I mix with might not seem decent, or polite or maybe smart. You are WRONG. They're capable in doing well in their studies AND being able to have fun at the same time. You might think they're just another bunch of friends who love to have fun, goes out clubbing, drinks and stuff like that. You might think that they are influencing me, well they are- My college friends, they made me realize that there are more things in life than just studying. They thought me how to juggle with 'fun' and with studies. They thought me how to stand up for myself when every one pushes me onto the ground. They thought me the true meaning of friendship, they made me push myself above my limits, strive to aim for my goals, lastly, to be a better person.

I might not be a top scorer in AUSMAT, or scoring almost-perfect scores in exams. But I did not fail badly. I just need to push myself a little harder.

I do not want to live my life, putting on a mask and hold back what I want to say or feel like saying on Facebook. I have RETARDED friends who would randomly write some nonsense things on my facebook; i do not want to hide that. I talk to my friends, in a way that only WE understand that there is some LOVE behind all the "you suck" and everything. I'm sorry if I sound offensive. I know what happened to my previous status was something that a girl should not write out to the world. If i were to hide all these, I'd apologize. For being Who I Am. For being Myself. For mixing with friends that I feel comfortable with.

College

I heard many of the seniors talking bout how fun college was and how we're gonna miss high school.
I remember complaining bout school uniforms;
and that we have to wear the same damn thing every day
I remember how early we have to wake up for school every morning.
I remember complaining bout not having the freedom to hav our hair done, OUR STYLE.

Well,
I do admit that college is fun;
we finally get the freedom to wear anything we like,
style our hair any how we want.

I won't complain about any thing.
Just writing about how I feel right now.

I can honestly tell you that I HATE, HATE seafield. ever since some accident that happened to me. but I love LOVE LOVE LOVE the teachers there :) well, some.

College is like SUPER tiring.
And it was only orientation day;
imagine if class starts tmr and the lectures start giving us assignments and all.
I'll be DEAD.

I miss school.

Although we need to wake up early, we get to be home early.
Although we need to wear uniform, I don't need to think about what to wear to college tmr.
College fees,
omg DO NOT GO THERE.
I bet every one knows how expensive it is.
Despite that,
Eating in college is also super expensive.

Mom would giv me rm4 per day in schl, and i get to save rm3.
Mom gave me rm10 a day in college, and i only get to save rm1. if I'm lucky =="
crazy. then she has to raise my allowance.

I met two awesome friends.
Got closer to some schoolmates.

College is REALLY different.

I hope I can cope with every thing.
And I hope I will not turn lazy or whatsoever.

Oh, and a super thank you to Vanes for sending me to college, and back from college :)